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My Journey to Obedience: A Testimony of Forgiveness, Healing, and Surrender to Christ


My Journey to Obedience

Psalm 46:10 (KJV)

“Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”


Cloudy sky with golden light breaking through, featuring the scripture quote "Be Still and Know that I am God" in blue and gold text.

Deuteronomy 31:8 

"Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord is the one who goes before you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor forsake you."

My Path to This Blog

Winding wet path through a quiet, foggy wood, the trail disappearing into the mist-evoking a journey of faith and trust.

My path to this blog has been a long one. I am 67 years old. I was saved at the age of nine, yet I wandered far from the Lord for many years. I looked for love in all the wrong places, carried burdens I didn’t know how to release, and lived through seasons that left deep marks on my heart.

Through broken relationships, painful losses, and long stretches of wandering, I learned how fragile human strength is — and how faithful God remains. The deepest wound of my life has been the absence of my son, a grief that never fully leaves. Yet even in that sorrow, the Lord carried me.

I have lived a life many have judged. But obedience is not perfection — it is surrender. My story is not about what I lost, but about the One who never left me.

Turning Point: Forgiveness

On a chalkboard, Forgive Yourself, with a big red heard holding the place of the O in Forgive.


In 2023, the Lord revealed a truth I had buried for decades: I hated myself for giving up my son. That realization nearly crushed me. But God invited me to lay that burden at the foot of the cross — and not pick it back up.

At first, all I felt was pain. But slowly, I realized I was lighter. Freer. The shame no longer owned me. The guilt no longer defined me.

That release became the seed of this ministry.
Out of pain, He birthed testimony.
Out of tears, He gave renewal.

I never imagined writing publicly, but obedience led me here. This is not religion. This is Jesus. Every post is testimony. Every reflection is surrender. Every prayer is a reminder that He is alive and present.


Foggy Gold background, silhouette of a man kneeling in prayer at foot of a cross.

A Prayer to Receive Christ

Romans 10:9 (KJV)

“That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised Him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.”

If you feel a stirring in your spirit — a gentle tug on your heart — that is Jesus calling you to Himself. If you are ready to begin a relationship with Him, pray these words from your heart:

Lord Jesus, I open my heart to You today.
I confess my need for Your forgiveness and grace.
I believe You died for my sins and rose again to give me new life.
I invite You to be my Savior and Lord — come dwell within me, guide me, and make me whole.
From this moment forward, I choose to follow You and trust in Your love.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.

If you prayed this prayer, know this: you are His, and He will never leave you.


Praying in Jesus’ Name

When we pray in His name, we trust His authority and His finished work. It means aligning our hearts with His will and resting in the confidence that our prayers are heard.

Key Scriptures: John 14:13–14, John 15:16, John 16:23–24, Colossians 3:17.

Walking in the Spirit

When you invite Jesus into your life, the Holy Spirit comes to dwell within you. He teaches, guides, and strengthens you from the inside out.

Feed your spirit: Read Scripture, pray, worship, and fellowship.

Do not grieve or quench the Spirit: Guard your words and actions.

Walk by the Spirit: Let Him shape your choices and attitudes.

The Spirit will never force you. He is gentle. When you choose to listen and obey, you discover a life of peace and joy in Christ.

A white dove in flight on a pale pink background.


Personal Reflection

I share this because I wish someone had spoken these truths to me when I first came to Christ. For many years I struggled to understand the Bible and often went astray. Yet through the precious gift of my daughter, born with Down Syndrome, Jesus drew me into a deeper walk with Him.

That is why I write now - to offer understanding, encouragement, and hope for your journey with Him.

Grace and peace for the journey,
Always,
Quil

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